Leap of Faith

It seems to be a pattern for me to update this blog every 2-3 months haha but I promise that is NOT intentional. Anyway these past couple have been pretty hectic while I've been getting my career situation figured out. Currently I am working for the internet company Digis in the call center and I absolutely hate it. I'll be honest I hate the concept of a "job." Really I just want to be running my own business and be able to control my own income. I've always felt that people are so limited by jobs. Maybe that's just because I have a very entrepreneurial mindset. I'm not sure. In either case I've never wanted to have a "job." Yes I graduated college with a BA in Communication and a minor in Marriage and Family Studies, but I went to school for the sole purpose to learn, not to be able to have my life and income controlled by some superiority. I had a moment of clarity the other day during a training session with Primerica. It's a financial planning firm for those of you who aren't familiar with it. Anyway I really like the idea of working for myself and being able to build a business. Ultimately I want to run my event planning business, but lately I have had no time to focus on it with the current job that I have and no time to put forth toward building clientele with Primerica. I realized that the only way I'm going to get to where I want to be is to quit the job I have now and focus on what I actually want to do. I'm actually completely freaked out right since I have no idea what's going to happen but I also know that noone ever got anywhere by not taking a risk. I also know that the only way I'm ever going to be successful is if I am able to work on what I want to do. I know it's a risk but it's not as if I haven't given any thought to this and it's definitely not as if I don't have a plan. I do. It's the not knowing how everything is going to work out or if it is going to work out that scares the hell out of me. However, I also know that if I stay at this job I'm never going to get anywhere and I'm slowing going insane. I realized that I never have time to do anything. Literally ANYTHING. My intent is not to complain. In fact  my biggest pet peeve is when people wine and complain and don't do anything to change their current state. All I am saying is right now I am miserable because I feel like I am being held back and that's why I've decided that something needs to change and I need to quit the job that I'm at if I'm ever going to be able to put time and effort toward a business and finally have control over my income. It's a giant leap of faith that I know I need to take.