We NEED an Intervention

Now I'm not hating on Provo or anything, but I was just here this last weekend and I could not help but notice that EVERYONE looks the same. Literally, EVERYONE looks the same. Not "figuratively" and no exaggeration lol.

 The girls all dress alike and do their hair the same. The guys all dress alike and do their hair the same. I used to live here so it's not like this is news to me, but I've never been able to figure out why. I mean is it  a coincidence that everyone happens to look the same or does everyone get together once a week to plan out their wardrobe?

This must be the case. Or maybe there was a memo that I never heard about with the dress requirements for Provo. I honestly would like to know what the deal is. Does no one have a mind of their own? I mean is it really necessary for everyone to do the same thing? Maybe I'm not being fair though. Maybe people are unaware that there is more than one place to shop.

Whatever the case, there needs to be an intervention. It has become a serious problem and we need to get to the root of this problem and fix it. I'm here to say that it is no longer acceptable and I would really appreciate it if everyone could just have a mind of their own. I can only handle seeing so much of the same outfit and hairstyle. It needs to stop. If you have any suggestions for fixing this problem please let me know. The future of Provo depends on it.

Brains? What Tem Tose Tings?

This week has been pretty hectic but somewhere along the way I think I lost my brain haha and I wanted to dedicate this post to my good friends Corey Lowe, Spencer Owens, Nathan Fife, and Thomas Mortensen. This will be the ONLY time that I will EVER condone this joke but I will admit that it is funny. Anyway is it possible to have sympathy pregnancy brain? My cousin's wife is pregnant and I'm living with them so I'm just going to blame it on that. It may also be lack of sleep or the combination of the two haha who knows? Anyway I seriously want to know where my brain has gone. Everyday this week I've gotten the days confused, I forgot how to count when doing inventory at work, and I today I forgot how to use my words when talking to customers. I'm not sure what happened but I opened my mouth to speak and all that came out was jibberish. Needless to say I've caused a lot of confusion for everyone else, especially at work with my lack of brain this week lol but the only thing I could think of all day today was "brains? what tem tose tings?" So a special thanks to Corey for starting that joke. Good night world.

Excuses, excuses, excuses

I'll be the first to admit that I've used excuses before but at this point in my life they have become absolutely useless to me and I've realized that they haven't gotten me anywhere. I've actually become genuinely irritated when I hear other people use them. I'm sorry if this makes me a brat, I really am, but my time is very precious to me and I don't have the time or the patience to just sit around and listen to them. When I hear excuses, no matter how legit you may think they are, I literally hear "blah blah blah." I'm very understanding and I understand when things are hard and that noone is perfect but when all I hear are excuses and see no action it's literally exhausting. I've never been the type to sit around and wait and I never will be. I have a life and I'm sorry if I come across as an impatient brat but I firmly believe that if you want something enough you can make it happen. I was and never will be a girl that sits around and waits for anything. In dating, in school, in work, and life in general. I'm not heartless and I do care but I've never been someone to sit around and mope if something didn't workout. I'm sorry but I'm better than that. If that makes me seem cocky, I'm sorry, but I have this thing called self respect. This is not meant to be an angry post. I just felt the need to express my opinion and what better place then my blog haha

The Power of a Blessing

I know this might seem completely cliche but I just felt really impressed to share my thoughts and testimony of the power of a priesthood blessing. It never ceases to amaze me how powerful a simple blessing can be. I've been really good with staying positive and just enjoying life but these past couple have months it's definitely been a struggle. I really love my job and the career opportunity that I have with it, but it's also been extremely challenging. Lately I've just felt like I don't have much of a personal life or time for the people and things that really matter to me. And I've just felt like I've been in way over my head and failing in everything that I feel like I'm working hard toward. I've even questioned if this is where I should be and what I should be doing right now. Even though I've been pretty good about being happy no matter what I've still felt really lonely. I haven't expressed any of this to anyone with the exception of my little sister last night when my racing thoughts were keeping me awake. Anyway my intention is not to whine or complain about anything but only to emphasize how strongly I feel about the Gospel and the power of Priesthood blessings.

I should also mention that I've been sick with a common cold that doesn't seem to want to go away for good. This morning I asked my cousin for a blessing and he had no idea about any of the other struggles that had been on my mind. At least I had not expressed any worries or concerns that I had besides being sick, which was more than obvious. My point is that in the blessing I heard exactly what I needed to hear and felt like everything that I was up all night praying about had been answered in that one blessing. I just felt so comforted and at peace and even more so after he gave me a big hug that was much needed. I had this feeling of assurance that not only was I going to physically feel better but that I would feel the love and support of the Lord as well as my family and that everything was going to be ok. It was just so amazing to me to feel the spirit so strongly and to hear exactly what the Lord wanted me to hear through my cousin. After receiving this blessing I also remembered something that Elder Holland had said in his talk The Laborers in the Vinyard  "...however late you think you are, however many chances you think you have missed, however many mistakes you feel you have made or talents you think you don’t have, or however far from home and family and God you feel you have traveled, I testify that you have not traveled beyond the reach of divine love. It is not possible for you to sink lower than the infinite light of Christ’s Atonement shines." This quote had infinitely more meaning to me and I realized that I had absolutely no reason to feel as lonely or discouraged as I had felt.

Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

Over the years I've gained a reputation for dating around. I've been called a "player," "heartbreaker," even "Barney" from How I Met Your Mother. I know it may seem like I don't take anything seriously, but that's not entirely true. Mostly I think that I just haven't found what it is that I'm really looking for and I realized this the first time I was introduced to Phillip Phillips. Obviously I fell in love with his song "Home," but it was more than that. After watching some interviews with him I realized that this is exactly the kind of guy that would be perfect for me! So needless to say I fell in love. On a more serious note though, despite the fact that he's not a member of the church and  can't marry me in the temple he pretty much is everything that I want and one day I will convert him and we will get married and live happily ever after. Seriously though, that's the kind of guy I want. I just haven't found him yet.

Leap of Faith

It seems to be a pattern for me to update this blog every 2-3 months haha but I promise that is NOT intentional. Anyway these past couple have been pretty hectic while I've been getting my career situation figured out. Currently I am working for the internet company Digis in the call center and I absolutely hate it. I'll be honest I hate the concept of a "job." Really I just want to be running my own business and be able to control my own income. I've always felt that people are so limited by jobs. Maybe that's just because I have a very entrepreneurial mindset. I'm not sure. In either case I've never wanted to have a "job." Yes I graduated college with a BA in Communication and a minor in Marriage and Family Studies, but I went to school for the sole purpose to learn, not to be able to have my life and income controlled by some superiority. I had a moment of clarity the other day during a training session with Primerica. It's a financial planning firm for those of you who aren't familiar with it. Anyway I really like the idea of working for myself and being able to build a business. Ultimately I want to run my event planning business, but lately I have had no time to focus on it with the current job that I have and no time to put forth toward building clientele with Primerica. I realized that the only way I'm going to get to where I want to be is to quit the job I have now and focus on what I actually want to do. I'm actually completely freaked out right since I have no idea what's going to happen but I also know that noone ever got anywhere by not taking a risk. I also know that the only way I'm ever going to be successful is if I am able to work on what I want to do. I know it's a risk but it's not as if I haven't given any thought to this and it's definitely not as if I don't have a plan. I do. It's the not knowing how everything is going to work out or if it is going to work out that scares the hell out of me. However, I also know that if I stay at this job I'm never going to get anywhere and I'm slowing going insane. I realized that I never have time to do anything. Literally ANYTHING. My intent is not to complain. In fact  my biggest pet peeve is when people wine and complain and don't do anything to change their current state. All I am saying is right now I am miserable because I feel like I am being held back and that's why I've decided that something needs to change and I need to quit the job that I'm at if I'm ever going to be able to put time and effort toward a business and finally have control over my income. It's a giant leap of faith that I know I need to take.

Sit Back and Enjoy the Ride

Life is hard. I know that I'm stating the obvious here but I promise there is a point. These past few months have been challenging to say the least. Actually I would say that it's been the whole past year. I won't go into great detail about my problems because we all have them and I'm sure that everyone can agree that sometimes life just sucks. Anyway, just the other day I was listening to So Small by Carry Underwood and this song just spoke to me and I realized how pointless it is to become so disheartened worrying about things that are completely out of your control.

It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big at the time
It's like a river that's so wide
It swallows you whole

While you're sitting around thinking 'bout what you can't change
And worrying about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count 'cause you can't get it back

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands


After listening to this song I just felt so much more at ease about everything and realized that I should be focusing on the good things are happening to me right now. I know sometimes that it's hard to recognize all of the good and happy things when so much has gone wrong or is going wrong and you feel like you can't catch a break. I can say from my own personal experience that being sad and stressed out about what you have no control over is a waste of time and emotional energy. So don't do it. Focus on the things and people in your life that make you happy and I guarantee that whatever you are struggling with will become more clear to you and probably even seem like less of a trial. Sit back and enjoy life's ride. It's full of surprises.